03 August 2010

Find Your Voice

So, everything I've been hearing for the past week - from a leadership conference, to a birthday dinner, to several messages I heard on Sunday, have all had something to do with the theme of finding your voice. I found it very interesting, because I was thinking about some poems I wrote, and I was just wondering about this one I wrote about a year ago, where it was and if I should brush it off and add it to my collection. After last weekend, I was determined, so here it is...



Find Your Voice
Why so silent
My precious one?
You are wonderful
So precious,
Created to sing
To speak
To whisper
To shout
To be heard!
Find your voice
And let your joy find its way
To encourage, to comfort
To love.

Oh, my heart sings
So full of joy
Full of my glorious one.
Find your voice!
What you’ve done so far
All you’ve said
Are simply shadows,
Echoes, really,
Of the glory inside of you.
Touch your heart,
Open it up and pour out
Everything you have!

Find your voice
My intimate lover.
The power and glory and majesty
That is in you,
That IS you
Boiling to come out
To overflow out onto those
Who are starving and thirsty
For who you are.
So open your mouth,
Find your voice
Speak the Word
Sing praises
Shout your love.
My precious, glorious one
My darling among maidens,
My dove, my perfect one.
My Bride.

04 April 2010

The Weapon of Rest

I read this in my devotional a while back:

"Remember that from the point of view of the Great Worker, one poor tool, working all the time, but doing bad work, is of small value compared with the sharp, keen, perfect instrument, used only a short time but which turns out perfect work."

It reminded me of a story I heard; I don't remember when or the setting, so if you know this story and I flub it up, forgive me in advance. There were these lumberjacks out on a job cutting trees, and one day, this brash young man challenged one of the others, a slightly older, definitely more experience worker, to see who could turn out more lumber. He had seemingly unfailing energy and was convinced he could cut more wood than anyone around. The other worker agreed, and they began early the next day. The brash young man went full speed, cutting more wood than he remembered ever cutting. After a while, he noticed the other man stopped cutting every hour or so for a short time, and then continued on. He knew at that rate, he would surely have more logs than the older man, and pressed on. They both broke for a mid-day meal, but the boastful man rushed back to his work, leaving the older man behind. At the end of the day, he looked proudly at his pile and went to boast to his competitor. He was shocked, though, to find that his pile was half again as big as his own. He didn't understand how this could have happened! He finally asked the man how he managed to cut more wood, though he stopped more frequently. He answered that the rest restored to him more strength to continue, and while he rested, he was sharpening his ax. Because his ax was always sharp, his strokes were more efficient. It was the times of rest that strengthened him to accomplish more.

Some people say, "Work smarter, not harder." There is a reason for rest, or God wouldn't have made a point to create it into our week. Our bodies know it, and yet sometimes we are convinced that pushing ourselves to the limit all the time will get more work done. What a lie that is. Phrases in Psalm 23 jump out at me: He makes me lie down in green pastures, and You prepare a table before me, in the presence of my enemies. There is something about taking time to smell the flowers, slowing down, resting a while, eating in the face of obvious threat, that drives the enemy wildly insane. It is at once quite funny and quite serious, because once we know and absorb this truth, it's great to use that particular weapon. But if we are unaware, he will send distractions, and before we know it, we are caught up in a whole lot of busyness, and waiting for rest to find us, instead of making rest our priority.

Rest, like any other weapon, takes skill and discipline to use. Try it out, and see how differently the battle goes...

22 March 2010

Trust to Hope...

Ramblings from my journal...

"Hope deferred makes the heart sick, But when desire comes, it is the tree of life." Part of my wrestling right now is that I am hesitant to hope, having seen many hopes dashed time and time again. But I think the heart was fashioned to always hope - it has to always hope in something. And it has an amazing amnesia of what happened to hope the time before.

Yes, scary though it is, I will trust to hope.

"Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoices; My flesh will also rest in hope."

14 March 2010

Two Poems

I was thinking on phrases from these two poems. Just thoughts, nothing solid, but I'll share them with you and you can reflect, or not, if you will...


He was better to me than all my hopes
He took away all my doubts and all my fears
Jesus made a bridge of my broken dreams
And made a rainbow of my tears.

                                     - Unknown



You number my wanderings;
         Put my tears into Your bottle;
         Are they not in Your book?
  When I cry out to You,
         Then my enemies will turn back;
         This I know, because God is for me.
  In God (I will praise His word),
         In the LORD (I will praise His word),
  In God I have put my trust;
         I will not be afraid.
         What can man do to me?
                             -Psalm 56:8-11

07 March 2010

Keep on

So, I've been hearing messages and reading little clips about how we should keep going, and not turning back. Very often it's just past the very point when we give up that breakthrough could have happened, where the reward was waiting the whole time, and we just didn't have the strength, stamina, perseverance, patience or whatever to keep on keeping on. It reminds me of a little adventure I had when I was in Scotland.

I went to a little beach called Silver Knowles, and I immediate noticed an island not to far off from the shore, and a kind of  stone bridge looking structure that led to it, but the bridge looked broken down and falling apart. On the island, I saw a fort looking structure, so I decided I wanted to go out on the island. I began walking down the shore, hoping I could cross the bridge looking thing. As I was walking, I saw several really nice and peaceful places I could stop, sit and have a nice quiet time if I couldn't get to the island, but I kept trekking along. It was a long ways away, but as I got closer, about 2/3 of the way there, I saw that what I thought was a bridge really wasn't. They were these huge pillars, and  they weren't connected. Really impressive, but a disappointment, since I couldn't see any other way to get to the island. I figured, well, I'll just get as close as I can and sit on the piece of land jutting out by that not-bridge. I headed in that direction, more and more disappointed that I couldn't get to the island. When I got to that little piece of land, I was very surprised to see that next to the huge pillars was a very low walkway, so low that you couldn't see it from far away, even so low that when the tide comes in, it would cover it.

As I made my way across the walkway, I thought about how like our lives it is. We have a vision or dream or goal in mind, and as we work towards it, the path that we thought we were going to take ends up being blocked, going the wrong direction, fallen apart, whatever. We have a choice then to go as far as we can go, or turning back, or turning aside to other things that seem doable or not as impossible. But, if we keep on going as far as we know how, a way tends to open up that we never saw before, and would never have seen if we didn't keep pushing forward.

I know that I can see life lessons in the smallest and silliest things, but that one hit me like a brick. As I sat on the island (it was like a little Eden), I thought about how the walkway was longer than it looked, and really slippery in places. It changed height and material about halfway out, and it was a little unnerving to feel like I was walking out in the middle of the ocean (which, on the way back, nearly happened - I nearly had to run to beat the tide!). But it was totally worth it. The island was amazing, and I learned a great lesson that I don't think I'll forget anytime soon...

13 February 2010

It was love at first glance

I was listening to this Misty Edwards song the other day, and I was brought to the memory of when I really met Jesus. Here are the lyrics:

Glance

I remember the first glance
I remember the first romance
I remember the first dance
When I fell in love with You
When I fell in love...

I thought that I would never know love
And maybe I would never know touch
And then You came and awakened me
And then You came unlocking me
I’ve never known a love like this
You've shown the truth behind the myth
The mystery

I remember the first glance
I remember the first romance
I remember the first dance
When I fell in love with You
When I fell in love...

When it's all been said
When it's all been done
When the race is run
And this life overcome

I will remember Your love
I will remember Your love

I remember the first glance
I remember the first romance
I remember the first dance
When I fell in love with You
When I fell in love... 


And so I was thinking when I really looked at Jesus, that's kind of how it felt like. He glanced into my eyes and my heart, and I felt like dancing. I came awake, and felt that this was someone who really loved me no matter what, and it was a dream. A wonderful dream I never needed to wake up from. Yes, it was from that first glance, I felt a great romance, and I've never been the same. I never knew love like that before and I took a swan dive of my own free will into the depths of His love.